Everyday ♡ blog // 30.10.25

 I'm only really who I am in real life to make my parents proud

After that, I think,, I'd be way more troublesome than I already am.

Not necessarily in a bad way,, but naturally,, I'm an eccentric person, y'know?

Today I went out and got a carmel milk drink. It was nice.

Yesterday I went grocery shopping.

Today,, I put a shirt in the laundry hamper.

I did laundry yesterday,, but I haven't folded it all yet.

Life gets mundane from time to time,, feeling like I have zero achievements.

Writing down the things I did does help me visualize it all in some sort of way.

I bought a 3kg weight the other day.

One singular weight,, because I am cheap and did not want to spend 22 just for two measly weights.

It keeps me busy with my time and is relatively simple enough to make me feel like I have done,, something,, at least.

I mostly do little things here and there. I guess it's better than doing absolutely nothing all day.

Again I signed up for something in advance because I just,,,, am so hesitant with doing things sometimes,

Not that I don't want to,, more like I can't bring myself to. If I'm not absolutely prepared,, I get worried,, I keep thinking I'll do it all wrong and I'll ruin everything and regret it.

To be honest,, i thinlk,, it's okay to fail sometimes and do horrible bad things and say stuff you dont really mean rather than not saying or doing anything at all.

I want to sstart living,, like really living,.

I'm so capable of so much so many things,, i don't wanna keep pushing and holding myself back because i'm scared of messing up

get too scared that i'm not able to ,, because i feel like i'm seen as a kid who's head is a little too broken to handle too many things

at some extent that is true but really,, i can do so much.

there's so muvh i wanna do

there's so so so much. i have to say

i'm so tired to say it so uh bye

bye bye nighty night buebye