wash wash clean clean

Yesterday I cleaned our kitchen (faxinão da porra) and today our bathroom. Nobody asked me to, just did it.

Well, my mind is still tired but my body is working, wich is better than before when I just couldnt make myself get out of the bed/couch/floor or whatver surface I would lie down all day.

Washed my hair, went to the spiritist center to get a pass ("passe" its like a blessing to protect you from "bad spirits") walked on the streets, talked to people.

All this situation got me thinking about happiness. I noticed that, for me, happiness need to be a constant choice, I need to put effort in order to be happy, its not a natural state. 

Happiness as an active, constant and conscious choice is my hope for now. I cant get tired again, theres too much to fight for.