Last year was hard asf. It was my senior year in HS and I was always tired. I live far from the school (and university too, btw) and it take a 1 hour bus trip to get in time. One day, I was so fucking tired that decided skip some classes and come back home earlier. When I was leaving the bus at my stop, I noticed that a elder lady also got off the bus and she was so lost and confused. She was dres... » Continue Reading
First log‼️‼️‼️‼️ Probably gonna use the site to train my english, so tips are wellcome I've been thinking abt aging bc I'm turning 19 mid-year, so I decided I'm not gonna age at all. I'll stay young minded - mature, responsible, but young - and try my best to outlive my enemies. » Continue Reading
Yesterday I cleaned our kitchen (faxinão da porra) and today our bathroom. Nobody asked me to, just did it. Well, my mind is still tired but my body is working, wich is better than before when I just couldnt make myself get out of the bed/couch/floor or whatver surface I would lie down all day. Washed my hair, went to the spiritist » Continue Reading
Made an AMAZING test today, hoping for the best but at least I tried. If I dont ace the test, I'll get an 0, thats how certain I am of my answers. No in-betweens. I even went to the gym today! I've been trying to condition myself to actually liking the gym by carrying a book w me to read while I do spin (yes, thats how fckng nerd I am, no judging) and I think its working. Rn, Im reading Wonderful ... » Continue Reading
I feel less shitty, bc I *do* like studying, but its interesting that I ALWAYS forget I like reading and studying and answering quizes and FUCK, I'm tired and cant do the things I like. Thats it. Thats always it. Theres always an it to ghost me from afar. Theres always some pain to make me procrastinate til dawn. If I'm in pain, is it procrastinating or something different? If everytime I'm in pai... » Continue Reading
I've been posting a lot of poetry in AO3 and discovered myself an artist again, a labour I had not touched for too long. Wich is funny, bc all my creative friend say that academia is what killed their creativit, but it was exactly what ressurected mine. It was not for college, I would never turn to poetry again. I've been trying to explain my existence through writing. My faith. My way and rules t... » Continue Reading