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for many years of my life people told me i kinda act like a kid and that they find it cute. i think some factors for this are me not being able to impose myself or say "no" to people, and just because im really short lol. it's insane.
thing is, i started adopting this to myself. i kept looking at myself as this little being who although is 19, thinks like someone who's 16. and instead of actually go out and fix this, i kept being like this thinking that it's what makes me be me. someone told me about this problem of mine and DAMN it hit hard. instead of growing up, i decided to keep acting like a kid.
woah. such a punch on the stomach but i needed it. trying to actually focus on my things and all for now, i gotta learn how to grow up. imma keep my head up. it's either that or i'll never learn how to grow up
(i know that's a much shorter blog sorry - just wanted to share)ย
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Dreamy<3Laura
I feel this, and for the longest time I've felt insecure about it, I don't want to make this about myself but maybe it can help you:
As time went on, I've realized that... I'm just like that, and maybe you are too an it's not a bad thing, we can have childlike traits and still be a good adult. Some people are rude, careless, harsh and just not a good human overall, I would rather be "childish" than an asshole
About the size, I'm an extremely short woman, 1,47 ish m but still a woman, and you, maybe short too, but still a man (and you're pretty young too, I think guys stop growing later) but even if you stay like that, you will still be an adult, adults come in different shapes and sizes and are just as valid as bigger ones, do not compare yourself to the"standard" and other people should not do it either, why do they care so much about your size wtf?.
likings-wise, the more deep into my adulthood I get the more I go back to the things I liked back then, maybe it applies to you but it helps us cope with the horrible world that there's out there, and hey, some things are just cool! if you ever find yourself liking these stuff don't be ashamed at all! everyone has their own stuff that helps them get through, you will live waaay happier when you stop caring about what some people think, there are tons of people like you!
And finally, some people (like you or me) are sensitive, innocent, naive, get happy or sad at small things.... is that chidish? maybe, is that human and honestly endearing? absolutely.
I've been described as innocent or childish but honestly you have to take it as a complient,that means that they don't see you as a bad and rotten person, and yes you can still be an adult and have these traits, you don't have to turn into a grumpy old man just because you are over 18....
I've seen in other blogs of yours how you even lack the ability of hate.... dude that is amazing, you should take all of those things that make up your person and embrace them.
I've also read your blog about your friends and how amazing thhat connection is... they love you because of who you are, with everything, and you should not change it. Some people are.... almost lifeless,they show or don't feel emotions, they seem empty, don't be afraid of feeling things, if you're sensitive yes, you can suffer but also feel deep love and happiness, that is beautiful.
The important thing is that you grow as a person, from your mistakes etc, but don't pretend to fit into a box just because society tells you to.
Sorry if I overextended myself here HAHAHA but I saw some similarities with me and thought maybe you would appreciate to read those stuff.
oh my god, laura...
...I absolutely needed that. during this whole process of healing I've noticed that maybe im just like that, just like you said. and god you're just SO RIGHT. like. so right. I shouldn't blame myself for being human or just feeling things. im tired of this nonchalant-being bullshit. I'll do things my own way and being myself.
thank you so much <3
by maciel; ; Report
Glad you found use in my words hahaha, you will live happier I assure you :3
by Dreamy<3Laura; ; Report
cherikizu
i mean, you're still pretty young. yes, a lot of people would consider you an adult but you're still a teenager, so ofc you'll act like one. i don't know you that much but i honestly think you act/think exactly how you should, wouldn't expect someone your age to act any different and i'd even say you're more mature than most guys in your age bracket lol. don't push yourself to be more mature because that genuinely sucks, take your time!!
thank you ๐
means the world to me and you're right. it should happen naturally, i shouldn't force that
by maciel; ; Report
rupt !!
age regression ???? that was my first thought idk why
dude im like this too, especially around my loved ones, and i have no idea what or how i feel about it hhhhhhh
i find that its sometimes nice to act like a kid again in a place or around someone you feel safe with. it can feel strange though especially when you reach those older ages, but i think its ok to keep that part of you. you can keep the whimsy and youthfulness, as long as its acknowledged that growing up is inevitable. i think it can be good. you do seem mature about a lot of things though its cool. idk
thank you! im honestly reflecting a lot on that. been getting into some conclusions and maybe just growing up will happen naturally
by maciel; ; Report
itrhld
you are not who you "should" be maci, you are who you are (and i find "it" awesome)
regardless of this, it's so cool you're able to acknowledge stuff about yourself. truly growing up in front of my eyes (apart from the height of course)
thank you. but I do think that's a problem to fix. i should be myself but also not act like a little kid sometimes
by maciel; ; Report
and you can work on that without being too strict at yourself ^^
by itrhld; ; Report
you're right. thank you so much
by maciel; ; Report
๊ฐเญจเญงโ ใm1s4โ .แ // hanako's wife .๐ n1 shoujo girl!!
tbh im gonna be 16 soon but i find your bulletins and blogs to be very... mature? i dunno how to explain it honestly
misa age drop
by ๊ฐเญจเญงโ ใm1s4โ .แ // hanako's wife .๐ n1 shoujo girl!!; ; Report
WHAT?? YOU'RE THIS YOUNG?? WHAT THE FUCK WHAT
by maciel; ; Report
KADJSFKALSDF sorry for the reaction its just??? WOAH??? very unexpected holy shit.
but thank you. i don't think i'm this mature sometimes but i think i'm on a good path
by maciel; ; Report
LMAOOO you can unfriend me if you want, i dont mind really
ive unfriended some ppl who are too old for me and you can unfriend me if im too young for you ๐ฅน also maybe its your texting style??? its very mature, homegirl i think youll do good in life, very mature i approve โ๏ธ
by ๊ฐเญจเญงโ ใm1s4โ .แ // hanako's wife .๐ n1 shoujo girl!!; ; Report
thank you!!
by maciel; ; Report