deadbeat is pretty dopeness

The new Tame Impala album is fire as fuck who said they were disappointed imma slash their tires. 

i mentioned being worried about my coworkers leaving -- i spoke too soon. 

this week has been rough. basically what happened is district manager walked into publix on thursday (the 16th) while i was at school and told my department manager that the very next day would be her last (publix rotates managers around, and mine has been at my store for 4 years). so friday i walk in completely oblivious and my coworker hugs me and says 'todays gonna be rough' and im like oh why 😇? and he says look at the card, look at the flowers; today is someone's last day. and im like hmm whos an npc that i wouldn't mind parting with. but it was the one person that we all dreaded leaving. the whole day was just overwhelming. the shock completely sucked up my morale and i just didnt want to work. everyone in the department cried and everyone else in the store was pretty sad cause my manager was the most beloved person in the store. 

me and my two favorite coworkers were the last to say goodbye to her, and it was rough. the three of us were like latchkey kids. we had home situations and she was genuinely like a mother to us. idk if i can speak for the other two but for me she was the first authority figure i was able to genuinely respect and trust and she gave me affection i didn't have and desperately needed. anyway it was rough. i watched a 29 year old man that i saw as a big brother sob like a child. that shit broke me. i just stood silent. 

then i went home and remembered how this one time my anxiety hit and i froze up and acted kinda stupid and she just hugged me. and then it was waterworks. 

The customer service manager cried for us when she found out who out next manager was gonna be. second worse manager in the district. i had to come in the very next morning to meet her. she introduced herself to us and started talking about how she's nitpicky and likes to clean and organize stuff and wants to rearrange the floral section. she barely walked in and she already talking like her lil produce manager ass own the store. she just walked in. she a guest in our house. 

i should also establish that we call her jaundice. 

anyway. one of my coworkers doesnt seem to have a problem with her. (which changed by the time he left me. he patted me on the shoulder and said 'good luck'). and at one point i was casually filling bananas as one does five times a day when the reality hit me so hard i started tearing up and i was like SHIT. SHIT. STOP THAT. STOP IT. and while i was having this epic battle with whatever hormone makes ppl cry and jaundice walks up to me to ask a question and i turn around and look her straight in the eye, completely forgetting that my eyes are probably red, wondering hmm why she looking at me like that? and i just casually answered her question and realized oh. that. eh whatever i wasnt even embarrassed. 

so then she goes to break. but before she goes to break she asks me who's gonna be working with me later, and if i had taken my break already. and i answered all her questions totally oblivious and naive 😇. right after she left the assistant store manager walks up to me and asks if shes pissed me off yet 🤣🤣 hes so real for that. anyway some time later when im cutting up some apple slices for samples that no one's gonna take from cuz nobody likes apples the asm comes back and says shes not coming back from break. and i stared at him like 😀 except more like 😑 cuz i was in a shit mood. obviously i could tell she was faking sick but then when i thought about those questions she was asking me i was like oh. she got me. 

the story gets worse. more later