life lately, and the desire to give up

life lately has been incredibly hard. i have gone through so much in such a short amount of time, and i am running out of fighting spirit. i had to make a hard choice for my mental health that i still often regret. my pet fish, something i had to keep me company when i felt lonely, died. the car i picked up from the mechanic died on the road with the same issue after spending $300 and driving only 3km from the shop. i ran out of money long ago and am sinking further into debt. i need a hug and comfort, and i can't get either. i haven't eaten in the last 30 hours. i have three assignments all due this week, and i haven't started a single one. i cannot regulate myself anymore, i cannot calm down. all of this needs to be done.