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Maybe I could say all the right things to make you fall in love with me.

Maybe I could be perfect, irresistible.

Maybe I could, but it wouldn't be real.

It wouldn't be worth it.

What's the point, when it's easy?

If you think I'm perfect, do you really even know me?

What happens when you see my faults, my scars, my weakness?

What happens when I disappoint you?

When you realize I'm broken, disgusting, filthy.......

No, I won't play that game.  I won't pretend.

Baby, I'll bleed my heart out, all my dirty secrets, all my shame, but don't get me wrong.  I don't expect your love, your forgiveness.

No, I expect you to leave, to walk away like I'm nothing to you.

Yes, I'll be honest, I'll be real, I'll tell you the fucked up truth, cause games aren't fun, they're just delaying the pain.

My darling, I know you never loved me.  You never would.  You never had to.

Don't you dare apologize.  You're empty sympathy is nothing but salt in my blood.

I envy you.  You couldn't possibly know what it's like.  You're not like me.

Darling, you live in another world, one I could only dream of.  Don't fool yourself into thinking you're not.

Maybe I'm insane to love you, knowing my love is cursed.

Just remember when you leave, don't look back to watch me drowning in my insanity.

The madness will forever be my home.🙃