Hospitals.. 10.19.25 / 19.19

i hate being in hospitals. i hate walking in.. i hate the machines that beep.. the yellow flashes.. the red.. the coughing that travels through the halls. the pitiful drawing little johnny colored on the walls. the walls that so many hands touched, the walls that saw so many souls... that came and went.. some even stayed..

life is so sudden.. one minute you're 5, thinking life couldn't get any better because you just got a new bike.. the next you're 20.. and looking for a new high.. a new way to enjoy life.. when life seems to be showing you everything you're doing wrong..

SOTD: Grieving - Leith Ross
"i never will stop grieving who we are when we are young"
"i think i'll love after im dead and grieve while im alive"

my chest feels hollow.. i feel tired. im breathing.. but i died last night.. i died just about every saturday for the past 3 years straight..