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quite the introductory post.
i'm getting older to which i don't really know what to think of. i'd often jump between holding onto the last pieces of childhood i have but i also find myself daydreaming about the day i'll finally have a sense of bodily autonomy. i live in the US, so realistically i don't think that'll be true for very long--- but a... whatever can dream. besides daydreams, i'm scared. very scared in fact. i've never been good with change and learning curves and i cannot deny the fact that i'm wildly uncapable of taking care of myself to a shocking degree. sure i'm not incompetent or anything, i can clean up for myself and i can carry myself with maturity but i simply believe that i'm not ready with the responsibilities that come with being an adult. of course, i'm not actually there yet--but i am certainly getting closer!
besides that i feel a sense of pride when it comes to recent moments in my life. i'm going out with friends more often and i feel as if thats a pretty big feat for me. i'd often decline invitations because my depressive episodes would kick my ass more often than not but i've slowly found the courage to go out and really have fun with my friends. i can't say i'm shy, because that'd be such a bold faced lie (bars). i'm pretty bold and i lack shame but my cowardice in public around people tends to hold me back a lot. regardless i hope i have fun today, i'll make something good out of it. i should probably get ready.
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Kym
Im scared too like, everything is becoming less and less available for younger people. Older generations call us sick and lazy, but the amount of stuff we need to do to start our life is way more than what they had to do.
Foods expensive, houses or flats are just too much money to buy, renting is also a nightmare, nobody hires anybody, and books are also expensive as hell.
it's dreadful to think about but the only thing you could really do is hope for the best? i'm not the most optimistic person but i always believe that optimism, even if its faux in nature, is always important to keep your head up. i don't say that just for you but for me as well. so let's keep marching on regardless!
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