10:43am

[10/18/2025] I just checked and its almost been a year since I did one of these diary entry blog posts. I did one on this exact day last year. My life is usually very monotonous and my activity here is spotty at best so I don't feel much of a need to do these. I need a hobby so maybe I'll get back at it. Things feel much worse but nothings really changed. I'm getting therapy and am working slightly more which is good, I think. I'm trying to be a little more social but at the same time I want to shut myself off from everything and delete my internet presence. I woke up at 8am and feel a little sick from drinking the night before, I think I'm just extra sad right now because I'm cranky. I really can't tell if things are getting better or worse for me. I think its a one step forward two steps back kinda deal. I'll keep working at it ^_^     or not