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Seriously, I'm thoroughly convinced I shouldn't exist, and should just stop breathing.  I'm always nothing but a bother, people lie to me and say I'm not.  I care too much, and love my friends, but I'm stupid, ugly, and just pathetic, and I'm wrong for thinking I could ever be good enough.

Things will be better when I don't exist anymore.  I wish I never existed in the first place, it would have been easier.

Don't bother lying to me, telling me I matter, or that you'd miss me.  You don't even know me, and even if you did, you wouldn't care.  I'm nothing, just some idiot who wished to have a good life, to know that I matter.

It just is what it is, I'll be gone, no one will care, everything will just continue on as if I never existed.  No one actually needs me here.  I'm sure some would be happier without me.

I promise, it's just a matter of time.  A few things I have to do, and then I'll sleep forever, I'll never wake back up.  Of course, I can't be selfish, I have to clean up first. x.x