Watching my life play out from my bedroom window

I think growing older's a scam. We chase the next chapter of our lives, what we can do, who we can be with, what sort of career we wanna spend the next 40 years slaving over and hating. Honestly, I'm sick of it. I think that all these plans and step by steps of how we should live our lives are stupid. Plans change and so do people, so why is everyone so wrapped up in the idea of sticking to "your thing", It's like that one boy everyone knew in the 4th grade who talked about being a pro football player, then he went from foam balls to middle school B team, to High school varsity, until he gets wrapped up in the wrong crowd and loses his scholarships to some college, that let's be honest here.. his 2.0 GPA is definitely NOT the reason they accepted his ChatGPT'd admissions essay... Okay maybe i'm getting a little carried away here, but you get the idea right? I know, I know, you're probably thinking to yourself "well what the heck does this have to do with your life when all you've managed to spew about has been some high school has-been who you still can't get out of your head". Well, there's these little girls in my neighborhood who resemble- to the freaking T, me and my friends growing up. It's genuinely terrifying to watch them live out something I've already done. The worst part is, I don't remember when I actually grew up (if I ever did) One day everything was just.. different. All my friends and I stopped hanging out, we went on with our lives, got new hobbies, new friends, and let's be honest here- better personalities. Anyways, It's so odd longing for a moment you can never have back, It's even worse when you're watching those same moments being taken for granted by sticky fingered children who won't stop knocking on your door.