im so back (i need therapy)

so i won't write too much because i don't feel like it BUT im going to work in bullet points

• there were a bunch of cigarette buds in front of my house out of nowhere for a week which is weird because that never happened my neighbors don't smoke, and it might be that person 
• people's assumptions about me become my reality because i do not know who i am (very bad) 
• everyone i despised i treat them with kindness (very good, low-key weird) 
• i don't feel the awkwardness anymore of talking to adults (im omw to become an adult im 19) 
• the bus stop guy i always pass by (when im late or whenever i want to go out) smiled at me and looked pretty shy (ew but ew in a good way) 
• i hate vinted 
• i need a situation ship 
• my dad told my sister that he thinks i hate him (i forgor he existed)
• im thinking about my friendships 
• i told some people that i see both sides like chanel because i don't make it a huge statement bc i don't feel comfortable doing that 
• uh
• i keep on thinking about a person who was bad for me, is it a spell or have i been in derealization too long, that my emotions have been delayed 
• my acne is back </3
• kinda feel useless, gimme job and i won't
• why do pro isreal people, use the bible for their statements like fuck man another reason to be embarrassed about the community which i share a belief with #MAKINGMYOWNBRANCHOFRELIGION
• i sleep on the couch now, i broke my bed and why is the couch much better 
• i realized how long my legs and fingers are (#mommaelonglegs)