Drifting away

Reality has been harsh and is punishing me with this eery feeling.

The universe is growing and in one fell swoop it is so small that I can see my own eyes.

Everyone knows something isn't right, but they aren't saying anything. They are creating a lie that I have to live with everyday.

I am scared of being brainwashed just so I will stay.

I am writing away my feelings to keep calm, though I think I am writing away my truth too.

After writing I sink back into the world of lies and turn more and more to everyone else. I will forget everything that formed my reality.

I am stuck between this and the next life.

I feel that life waiting for me patiently as it calls out my name through the echoes of the wind.

I hear it so loudly and yet it is so far away. Though I can not stay without keeping my mind sane.

I am thinking too much. I am accepting the truth, write it down, let it go and forget myself. Until I am not myself anymore.

Everyday I am scared to wake up and not be myself anymore.