Live your life.

Okay so its been a min since I've been on here and btw if my grammar is bad I apologize, I have nails on right now and I am basically disabled. So I'm just get right into it. 

So I haven't had my phone since feb (still don't) because I bought drugs trying to overdose. I moved again and I'm currently in New Mexico, my cousin raped me, my mom is gonna have an exchange student live with us, me and her fight everyday, and the dude that "loved" me leaked me. By the way I'm still 13 my birthday hasn't came yet (Jan 25th.)

I wouldn't say I've been focusing on myself a lot but I have been focusing on myself more. I've been trying to figure out what type of person I wanna be and the kind of people I wanna surround myself with. I've realized that the people you hang around FOR SURE change how you act. I would never cuss in 5th grade and once I got to 6th ppl I hung around would cuss and I started too. 

All I have too say as a 13 year old who has seen and heard things. Don't let these people fuck up your life. Do and be whatever the hell you want to be. If someone says you cant do shit prove them wrong. I've tried taking my life 5 times since the feb last year and everybody I called my "friends" was just telling me to give up. I decided to better my life. I'm currently in FCCLA and student council, two AP classes, the rest honors and I'm doing track. (well offseason track.) 

But even now I still have those "you're not good enough" "kill yourself" thoughts. Just ignore them. Ignore those thoughts the best you can. Oh and another thing. Delete social media no lie. Social media is literally the worst thing you can be on now a days. People are so mean for no reason and its even worse through a screen. Do yourself a favor and just get rid of it.

(Again sorry for my bad grammar byeee!)