i am trying

I have no one but myself 

i feel absolutely miserable and alone. It’s completely my own fault for not talking to others but there’s no one to talk to. I so desperately want a life I just can’t live. 

I’m going to go through the rest of the weekend sitting in my room then next week going to class and repeating it all again. 

It’s not like i’m not trying. But it feels like it doesn’t even matter if i try. absolutely nothing is ha