Me, After All

Who do I owe the biggest apology?

No one has ever been harder on me than I have.

No one has picked me apart the way I do in the mirror.

No one has replayed mistakes over and over,

punishing me long after the moment has passed.

That’s been all me.

I’ve been my own harshest judge,

my own enemy,

my own bully in the dark.

I’ve talked to myself in ways

I would never talk to someone I love.

And that’s the cruelest part,

I never offered myself the love I kept giving away.

So if I’m honest,

the person who deserves the softest words from me,

the person who deserves to be forgiven,

the person I should finally say I’m sorry to,

is the same one staring back at me every day.

I owe myself everything I kept waiting for from others.

And I owe myself the apology

for all the years I treated me like less

when I was already enough.

-dmnd