october now

its october, just like the title says.

started a new job, full time. live in a new place. i actually like my roommates this time. one of them showed me 'daria' recently and its been fun watching it together. 

reconnected with an old friend i hadn't spoken to in about a year. learned a lot of stuff i never thought i'd get around to knowing. its interesting the things that people do.

i have a date on friday. i haven't gone on a date in a long time. i don't really know what it is i want -- well, life companionship, i guess. i thought i'd never be ready. dunno if i am. but its a step in some kind of direction. more right than wrong i'd say. when you build a life with someone and suddenly its gone, there is definitely a feeling of never wanting to try again. but here i am. onto the next life i guess. 

as much as i like my roommates, it would be nice coming home to a place decorated all to my tastes, and with a little cat of my own. but i've come a long way since my first apartment here, so i won't complain.

i just took a singular ant outside. still can't kill bugs. more at 8.