landed the wrong way

FUCKKKKKKK I MADE A MISTAKE

recently i got into this really small fandom (and kinda dead too). there were very few creators who actually make content of that game occasionally. i was so devastated until i found that one girl whose whole account is about that game?? AND SHE POSTS RLLY OFTEN TOO. no shit i was happy like i found a ladybug or something. so like why not following her??? then after 2 weeks of following her id thought that maybe it would be cool to interact with her for a bit. i commented "PEAK" on her vids and she responded with "TYSMMM". dude im noticed!! shes not popular or anything but i was just so happy that i was noticed. seeing that everything went well, i thought that it would be a good idea to interact with her more so maybe we could be moots or friends.. and yep when i sent a message to her about a story she uploaded, she replied back too. and she followed back. and we became moots. brudda life is great. 

UNTIL. until. just this morning, when i just woke up to watch her videos. i pressed on a post on her story with her art. and yk what was cool?? like in the art, she drew my guy spilling the food ingredients all over the floor (this char is a employee at a restaurant). and my guy just stood there staring at the mess with tears rolling down his face. wait hey dont laugh. its actually very good symbolism though if you have watched/played the game. i loved the art so much until my brain started to mess with me. "it looks like he pissed himself". and yk what?? i thought that this shit was so funny, so why not telling the creator that joke?? so i texted "mummy i pissed on the floor" and patiently waited for her response. but you know what happened? she saw my message, then she deleted the story bro... i was so confused like huh?? and then SHE BLOCKED ME TOO. 

man... oh screw my crude jokes. my humour always worked with other people, i never thought that it could hurt softhearted people, especially when they have low self esteem too. and hell how did i forget that this girl was always displeased with her art. dude someone gotta punch me, why do i accidentally hurt/piss people off. i swore to god that i wouldnt repeat the same mistake i made back when i first joined the internet. and here i am again. god i hope they will unblock me later, but im not sure that would happen.

im really sorry salmon. i thought you were a really cool person and i loved you for your art and animations. i swear that i wasnt trying to make fun of your art, i only meant to bring laughter. but i guess my joke wasnt very funny to you. i hope you forgive my careless mistake. i wouldnt want to miss any of your art/animations </33