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I've been overthinking more often, and it's making me feel bad.
I still have some problems with my damn insecurity, and I've been working on some issues I acquired because of rejection in recent years, one of them being emotional dependence.
And I believe that if I start to like myself more, one day I will be able to feel less affected by these feelings.
I've been practicing this for three years, but I keep trying. I can't give up, even though there are times when it truly exhausts me. After all, at some point, it will just be me. And I can't hate the only person who will be with me forever. I need to love her so that, maybe, one day, she will be loved just as much.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm too selfless, for thinking so much about others and often ending up getting screwed over because of it, but I realize that in fact I'm tremendously selfish because with all these problems, I want my friends to look at me and "hug" me, but it gets tiring. No one deserves that. And that's okay.
I really want to love myself, I want to take care of myself, my mind, my emotions, my psychology, even if it takes a long time.
I want to be my favorite person.
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Amelie!
Liking yourself more is indeed a great way to deal with it, but I know it might be really difficult... I'd like to mention the fact that you've called yourself in a third person, because (in my opinion) is a great way to deal with yourself. If you think much about everyone else, you can think of yourself like another person! Tell yourself good things you'd like to say to your friends too. Treating yourself like this might make you want to feel better so this "third person self" can feel happy too. I like to think about it as heart and brain, you being the "brain" and it trying to take care of "heart". Feeling emphatic with yourself is very important, you're not selfish for thinking so. You're a person too. One day, you'll learn to live along your heart, and maybe be friends with it!