💣 | Screw Explaining

I'm sick and tired of explaining to people. How they view me is no longer my business but screw everyone who judges others based on who they are becoming. I think it should be more of a concern on people's end that they aren't changing when they should be because change is surprise! INEVITABLE! I'm not mad but I am simply putting an emphasis since situations like these are getting so unnecessary and therefore, annoying altogether.

I shouldn't be judged in the first place because I am not harming anyone or myself. I just want to express who I am becoming since I am finally discovering what I want to be and look like in life now that I slowly have the freedom of doing so. I know I cannot stop people from judging me but oh my goodness this sucks so bad.

I hate having to explain why I think this way or why I am the way that I currently am. I still am affected by these things because it sucks knowing that I can't even do such things to others or think of them in ways they don't want to be thought of. Why can't people be more genuinely understanding? I think that it's too much to ask nowadays but if people claim to care the way they do to those who are "important" to them, why go out of their way to judge them?

I'm tired of being judged all the time. I know I shouldn't care but it's painful and disappointing to witness and experience because these are the people that I care about the most. I guess it has been one-sided this whole entire time yet I was just way too blind to see that. It's unfortunate but I guess I can be happy that I now know where I stand in their lives.

They do not deserve another explanation from me and I am so done with sharing what's been going on in my life lately. There will be no access to that anymore. If my boundaries are still being pushed back, it's time to cut some people off and I have been preparing for that moment. I have to protect myself and my well-being.