How was I ever convinced they could love me?

My sister ran off to live with her boyfriend in 2018, 2019? Guess they're married now, but that's hardly the point. His mom was friends with another neighbour mom that had two kids. He had a brother, 2 kids and a girlfriend as well. 

So they were one big family, one group.

When I started living there, I went to a barbecue.

The neighbour mom took a photo of everyone and posted it to Facebook. Captioned it something like "You know how I feel looking at this photo? Grateful."

And what nobody ever found out is that she pushed me out of the way and I sat on the porch behind them.

"No no, they're like, family, and I... you know?"

Olivia, I have to admit, everything else at 42 combined was definitely worse. It was torturous.

But nothing in my life has ever hurt as much as the person I put all of my faith and trust and hope upon casting me aside.

I will never, ever, ever be able to understand how you could hurt me like that.

You said you loved me. 

Walker even said that when their family says "I love you", they mean it.

Now I know that was a lie.