𝓂𝓎 𝒻𝓇𝒾𝑒𝓃𝒹𝓈 𝒹𝑜𝓃𝓉 𝒸𝒶𝓇𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝒾𝓂 𝒽𝓊𝓇𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓂𝓎𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻 ( TW SH)

so ive talked about some of this before in other blogs but i just love repeating myself, so both of my friends that i go to school with and see everyday i would say im pretty close with them.

 i recently told one of them that i have struggled and is currently struggling with sh, he asked me why i never told him and said we would "discus" it the next day. the next day i asked if he really wanted to "discus" anything or if he just said it. he said  idk and he seemed like he didnt give a fuck about me that i was literally hurting myself.

so my other friend saw my scars when we were in a hot tub and i saw that she saw them but she never asked about it reminder this is my friend of NINE years so yeah

my friends dont care about me at all they arent trying to help me they arent trying to check up on me and i know its not their responsibility but he said i could tell him i asked if i could tell him and he said yes 

WTH why do they not care why why why i care about them so much if i ever saw that on them i would try to help them the best i could

why do they not care like what 

i feel the need to tell my friend the one i texted about it i feel the need to tell him literally everything and maybe ill see if he cares

ig i also only told him that i did it a while ago even though i relapsed the same night and "a while ago" was 11 days ago 

i dont have any other friends i can tell or talk to about this so im kinda in shit

im not well im not happy and i need help 

okay thats it thanks for reading