Last homecoming

This is my last homecoming before I graduate and it honestly sucks. No date, I'm awkward, can't even let loose for a night and worst of all I have allergies making my nose run. I can't even go hang out with the one person here that's my friend. I wish that I had a date but man I can't even talk to people plus low-key the guys that I would want to either, graduated last year, have a girlfriend already, or are straight so that's fun. 

It doesn't help that my suicidal tendencies and self harming behaviors are coming back.