crying, throwing up and going crazy

i just break up with bunch of my online friends who where very close to me. i just couldn't stand them anymore. it was fun while it lasted, but it didn't work anymore. it doesn't mean that it didn't hurt like a bitch, or that i didn't cry the whole day after it. or that i didn't try to drink my feeligs away last night. but i know it was meant to happen, everything in this world is meant to happen for a reason or another.

i got a bit of mental breakdown after everything, right now i'm sitting with purple hair dye in my head, because i want to forget everything that sometime was and focus on something that is yet to come.

i feel like i'm going crazy rn. i want to cry, scream and hit the wall all at the same time. i just want to forget them, every one of them. i'm just scared to be alone. they were the only ones i had, and now i don't have them either. but i know i will survive, i had survived from so much worse than this, and i will survive from this too. i'm sure of it.

listened this while writing this, it just sums up my thoughts perfectly