analysis of recent events

ever since this month started ive been okay then im not okay then turns out i was never okay because i was faking everything. what exactly am i really feeling? why do i feel like an odds one out everywhere at all times?

all i do is ask questions instead of answering them. and im going to keep doing that until i die. really stupid stuff im dealing with here! me problem per usual though  haha. i think its really weird how the things that used to bother me havent been bothering me as much until im like not feelin well then it hits me like a train. whatever T__T