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What even counts as trauma?
It feels like many people think of it as some big boom moment. The switch that flipped and made everything go wrong. But if that's the case, I don't think I'm traumatized.
I've had all my issues as long as I can remember. All those moments in my life that could've been "the cause", I feel nothing for.
But that word gets thrown around by every shrink I've ever been to. Trauma this, trauma that. I suppose I understand to an extent, all my problems are trauma-caused by definition. A personality disorder, paraphilias... But I don't feel traumatized.
Sure, many things have happened to me. You can't be raised in the environment I was without having some sort of problems. But traumatized? It doesn't sound right.
I know I post about these events and my mental health often, but I really don't see them as post-traumatic stress. It's not like they keep me up at night. It's just... Cause and effect. Explanations for why I act the way I do, but not trauma.
Though, at the same time, I think I was just born sick, and all those moments just amplified it, not caused it. Lately, I've been okay with that explanation.
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artymattymatt
there are "minor traumas" and "major traumas". in the most simplest terms, major traumas are the "big booms" that change everything, but minor traumas build up over time. both can have major effects on you. just because you've had minor traumas doesn't mean you aren't traumatized. we all are.
Anna💌 (prongs' version)
100% how i feel. i wouldnt know where to start finding solutions, when i dont know where it all started. i do not remember anything.
Evil Hi
this is exactly how i feel it’s hard to explain it, i don’t feel traumatized at all even though when i talk about certain things it can come across at it. but i dont think about it that way, or it doesnt make me stressed or upset or anything. i liked how u articulated it :,)
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"All those moments in my life that could've been "the cause", I feel nothing for". I experience the same thing. It's comforting knowing I'm not alone in this situation.
Liberating madness
Trauma isn't only a boom event it can be a slow but ultimately avalanching event.
When I was little around 8-9 my brother started doing drugs and I was aware of it but at the time it was only weed it wasn't until a year or so later that I realized he had started doing heroin for around 13 years he was an addict yet still supported us.
Now even after being 5 years sober I carry both guilt and trauma just recently the novel I'm reading had the mc’s daughter start doing drugs to cope with life as I kept reading it over the week I kept feeling like vommiting the weakness the loathing even when I watched a video talking about fatal amounts of drugs I kept thinking what if my brother overdosed or got a laced batch its also the reason I can't take medicine and why I carry narcan on me.
Trauma doesn't need to be loud it simply has to hold you in silence.