14.09.25

I went to a thrift sale again. 

It's really fun to look at things at the thrift market, and it's a very good excuse to get out of the house.

I also baked some apple pastries yesterday.

And also today I ate cake, it was also very nice.

I got a pack of postcards for a dollar. And a plushed toy for a dollar also. 

 i also got an art print for four dollars. it was actually 5 dollars but upon my very audible, "OH! I LOVE THIS ! I am very drawn in by this art peice, I am very enamored and endeared by it." the lady selling it sold it to me for four. I am aware that this is a common marketing tactic but idon't care they were very nice about it and gave me tips on framing it and it was an overall very pleasant and fun interaction.
i google searched it and it's titled "My Fawny" by Govinder Nazran:

I did laundry today, too, and I washed the lil doggy plush I got for a dollar.

One dollar doggie.......

for one doller..........

i think i shall call the little dog,, "dolly"

as in like one dollar . i am very smart.

Dolly the doogie!!

I did not buy these things,, but other things I saw at the market that caught my eye were--

- A plush of The Gruffalo

-Hats which said, "Justin Beiber" and "Kang Gary" on them.

-a bag of toys (mlp)

-another bag of toys (ty collectible toys with the big sparkly eyes)

-hoodie with tokidoki art on it

-ipod touch 

I stopped enjoying life and doing things again. It gets to me easily, being cooped up in the house, being and feeling alone all the time, feeling like nothing is worth trying for or doing.

On days like this I can say, "I'm so happy!" genuinely and I'm really glad for it.

I'm kind of glad I was too stupid to kill myself properly and I wonder what wouldv'e happened if I hadn't failed at that even just once. 

Certainly I wouldn't be eating cake today, certiainly I wouldn't have time to draw art for fun

to make apple pastries and make apple peppermint tea with the peels, and to plate it nicely on little saucers and teacups for people to try

i wouldn't have been able to do any of this if it weren't for all of my efforts into becoming the person i am today.

I've been working on cleaning up my room and making arts for the past few days. Especially wit the artds,, because i wanna make a few artworks to use as examples for art comissions!!

I have also been making bracelets to sell and some barbed wire for fun

I really do wanna focus on my art and education, and also myself

I've been neglecting a lot of that

My last english class is in a few days, so i wanna at least make it to that. i tried out combined sciences,, and i think i'm interested in pursuing biology, and will probably take the examination for it next year alongside english.

To be honest I don't want to rush myself. Sometimes it feels like my circumstances are so easy, that all of this should come easily to me, and i'm not working hard enough or taking advantage of the time i have,, but it's really not that easy.

I only started walking properly again three years ago, I've only started studying again earlier this year. 

I have another e.e.g scan scheduled in a few days, and I'm kinda hoping that it'll be alright.

It'll most likely be, I just hope that my results come out okay and I don't have to go on any medications again 'cause it was really too much for me.

I don't think it'll be too much trouble, because I can handle myself now

I believe in myself i really do.

i just hope I'll be able to study for and pass my exams, and be able to pursue work and higher education.