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im snotting all over my keyboard right now but i really dont want to die. i know i say it all the time that i hate everyone, but its not true, i love everyone in my life so much and i want everyone to be happy so badly. i want to give up so bad but i know i dont really want to. the world wont be the same without me, but the world will be exactly the same. the universe is the way it is now because im alive but it would be the same anyway. i just wanna be smart and happy again, i dont want this to be the last thing i feel. i wanna make it, and i wanna do what i planned to do, and i want my mom to be proud of me but its so hard. i wanna live so bad i want to stop living. i know im screaming into the void right now but i really just want to be happy. i dont want to give up on anything, i wanna keep going and make it to the finish and i wanna help people and i want everyone to be happy and love themselves please love yourself its all i have left
rest in peace haru urara
rest in piss charlie kirk
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l0rdnik0n
this is stupidly real i just want you to know that its so so so tiring and hard feeling like this and i know it feels like everything is going wrong but i also want you to know that you come first. try and give yourself the room to feel everything thats stupid right now and be nice to yourself, you have so much time ahead of you. all you can do now is focus on whatever it is in this moment thats keeping you here, anything to make you feel good/grounded even if just for a bit. or dont listen to anything i said because sometimes none of it ever feels like it helps. youre doing what you can and im proud of you <3
1 in a krillion
Yo I feel you you might be going through depression that’s what it was like for me I hope your doing good