Life

Yk, lately I've been thinking if I'm really living my life or just drowning myself in anything that makes me forget that in alive

Like, am I really enjoying the moment? Do I really like that? Do i really want that? 

Or am I just fooling myself to think I like it, just so I don't have to actually think and won't feel really bad for just being alive? 

Coming from other dimension isn't easy, all the time I think "I want my life back" or "how could I enjoy this life when my previous life was so much better?"

I really don't want to think, cuz I know I'll end up w the same answer as always: It's not worth it