09/06/25

i'm having such a hard time existing now. i don't feel worth anything anymore. i'm searching for meaning in everything, and still feeling empty, like there isn't a point. i'm using substances to distract and numb myself.

i don't feel any improvement whatsoever. i'm in therapy and i'm medicated, but i can feel myself getting worse. sharing this would feel like i'm looking for pity and sympathy. keeping quiet seems worse for my mental health. i don't know if it would be better to speak up and risk looking like i just want attention or stuff it down and risk losing even more progress.

i'm floating through life like a ghost right now. i need help and i don't know where to look. therapy and meds are supposed to help. why is it not working?