hello spacehey

its finally the weekend for me so i actually have the time to hop on my laptop and upload a proper blog instead of quick bulletin posts from my phone,, anyways

uh so my week sucked. my best friend was sick all week so she wasnt at school, which is the worse bc whenever shes not there i really start to notice just how annoying everyone is,, and i mean i ofc have my other friends and theyre great friends but they have a different vibe ig,, theyre not like devoid of emotion, but still quite calm and neutral majority of the time, they are not nearly as energetic and pumped up as my best friend so its like,,, cool i have my friends to hang out with ! but you guys dont really do much to help distract from the fact that everyone here is pissing me off

but ig me and my best friend generally do just click better bc we're both the only trans people in the friend group, so theres conversations we can have about gender and lived experiences and whatnot with eachother that the others just cant relate to,, and also conversations in general with eachother flow really well in a way that cant be replicated with the others,,,, idk why but whatever

point is, i miss my best friend. last time i saw her was sunday afternoon, she came over to my place for lunch (made a blog entry about that) but other than that,, i havent actually seen her for nearly 2 months, because before sunday, she was out of the country on holidays, so last time i saw her (apart from sunday) was the 7th of July...... ugh,, but really really hoping she feels better by next week,, theres so much we need to do but life keeps getting in the way

anyways, on top of the shitty week, i got home on friday afternooon (yesterday) and then a couple hours later my younger brother got home and turns out his friend was coming over for a sleepover which apparently had already been planned earlier in the week but i didnt find out until my brother showed up with his friend and it really threw me off bc i didnt know about it and i just wanted to have a quiet friday afternoon after that week, relax a little, go to bed early and whatever but no, i didnt get to do any of that and i ended up staying up until 12am bc him and his friend wouldnt stfu,, i was so annoyed and tired but couldnt do anything but cry

on an unrelated note, i have nose piercings, and i also have a cat,, and bc my cat sheds a lot of fur and i have my nose piercings, pieces of her fur keep getting stuck on my piercings right outside my nostrils and it is SOOOO ANNOYING bc i notice it when im breathing, and then i try to get the fur off but it just keeps ending up there anyways ?????? (SOB)

anyways, i have to study for a maths exam over the weekend but i dont wanna do that, idc about maths >:/

edit: one of my nails just broke, this is not my week fml guys