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sometimes after that feeling of dread goes away i realize how stupid i am. after my head clears and i acknowledge my stupidly silent surroundings, i truly do realize how delusional i am!
"everyone is out to get me!" "no one loves me!" is that even true??? i havent even bothered to ask. i expect everyone to reach out to Me and check up on Me when im doing that to absolutely no one myself. how entitled is that?? when no one invites me out somewhere i assume they hate me. i cant help but assume everyone hates me when no one has even said that to my fucking face!!
maybe it has something to do with my past? i mean i had an online friend group of some sort and we'd talk nonstop for many years. seeing how everyone has a life and only checks up to me when they can..i guess i am spoiled. maybe i should just get a life myself! face my fears! i never will though haha . mostly because i dont wanna blows raspberry
if anyone was as desperate and obsessive as i am to me id totally freak out! i wouldnt be able to handle it. but i want it i guess? i dont know what i want and i feel like ive emphasized that too much.
whatever it is i want is way too much. im more focused on everyone else's wants than mine anyways! blehh
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neofenixlive
maybe you should get a life...NOT IN THE MEAN WAY!
i mean it as like, start doing stuff you like more, pay attention to beautiful places around your city, think more about your life and future, and usually try to get your head to not be as full as it always seem to, its a good way to be more independent from people and social interactions :P
thats like my dream . walking around by myself and just being in the moment . but i dont go out without my mom unless its school so whenever i do so my chest hurts . its something igotta get used to tho
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maciel
honestly i was like this too. whenever i was feeling bad, id have these explosive reactions and all.
you're not stupid. that's natural. so now it's up to you to start noticing these patterns instead of just following them again and again