texting is so much work

dude i was sittin here, looking at how many messages i have. and i don't mean just on here, i mean on everything. im on the frontlines in the leaving people on delivered war. 

i still think people who leave others on read are like emotional terrorists, but whatever thats not the point.

honestly just wish i could telepathically tell people my responses. something about looking at your notifs, and seeing a bunch of texts. thinking about actually having to text them back, actually feels exhausting. like i’m sorry, i don’t feel like doing that shit. 

i aint shit tho, bc i be crashing out over shit like that ngl

“omg what if something terrible happened to them”

“omg what if i said something really really shitty, and now they hate me and they'll never respond to me again and now they’re just another person who quote unquote left me. and now i’m ina catatonic depressioonnn for a few days or so, and then i make a bunch of impulsive decisions because quote unquote nothing matters, for like a few weeks or months or so”

or anything adjacent to that oddly specific scenario up there. thats not even a daily thing, just happens every now and then.

that doesnt change how fucking tiring texting is tho. i would sooner lose my fucking mind about how long someone takes to text me back (WHICH DOESNT EVEN HAPPEN THAT MUCH BTW), rather than text someone in a timely manner. 

i also feel like being a bad texter is morally gray. i can’t blame anyone who hates me for being such a bad texter. seriously, cant apologize enough for that.