I'm falling apart.

I have been battling with disability for a few years now. 

My mother refuses to acknowledge I have anything as she is 

scared of looking like a "Bad mom" or having a "broken" child. 

I struggle with pots and moderately intense chronic pain of my 

muscles and joints. I have knees that give out on me and a knee 

tendon that just slips off occasionally. I have asked for many things 

to help me, such as a cane, or a shower seat. The only thing I have 

ever been given for help is a knee brace when my doctor finally got 

to talk and didn't have my mother interrupt implying I "don't" have xyz. 

Like oh, I didn't know you went to medical school and know what you 

are talking about. I also recently found out that I may be anemic, yet I 

will likely not get treatment for anything till I turn 18. I have a hole in 

one of my teeth from an old tooth filling coming out and more thing wrong 

with my teeth. I have glasses that are held together by tape and a prescription 

that is out of date, yet no treatment. It's not like they are avoiding this because 

it is costly. We have health insurance and none of this stuff costs my family any 

more than maybe gas to go to the place. I'm barely holding on yet still trying to 

get a job even though working without any treatment could very well have me 

pass out or get very hurt. Yet I'm still doing more than most people my age. 

I don't know how much longer I can hang on. If you read all this crap, thank you, 

No one has listened to me for so long. I'm doing everything I can to grasp at life 

and not end my own. So, thank you for at least listening. <3