day 23

what's up ! today was good. i feel like my mania is wearing off a bit, which sucks. maybe not, maybe im just doing shitty cuz the one person i want is almost 4 years older than me and i have to wait 2 years until i can actually date them and i know that they wouldnt be attracted to me cuz theyre smart and not a republican or something (LMAO) until im of that age but even then they might not want to date me cuz theyve known me for a while and whatever whatever blah blah yadda yadda. something something i wish my parents banged earlier so i wouldnt be this age. whatever.

uhh i hung out with my friends today! i went to the arcade with 2 of my friends, G and A (G who i've mentioned before, and A who is my ex girlfriend but ended up being a lesbian). it was awesome. we also went to the goodwill too, and i got a cute top and a toy piano and a dolphin stuffed animal. i also got one of those photo booth photo things with G, ambar just wanted him and i to take the photo. i love my friends. ao3 isnt working for me and it might be down idk, which sucks cuz i wanna write fanfiction and i dont have anywhere else to write it. besides a notebook, but i got parents and i dont want them finding like NSP smut or something in my notebook :,)

anyways, today was good. G accidentally drove us into oncoming traffic for a second, but i dont blame him cuz that intersection is confusing as fuck and he only got his license like 3 or 4 months ago. my other friends arent responding to me a lot cuz i think they got jobs and shit. it sucks being the youngest in a friend group. like what do you mean i cant just text someone and have them text back cuz they got college and jobs and shit to do? bro, drop out of college and join my emo band /j. uhhh anyways, everything hurts (DDR at the arcade) and i have school in the morning.

write 2 y'all tomorrow! listen to Adrianne Lenker and Ninja Sex Party (insane difference between those two, lmao). love others and, more importantly, love yourself.