day 20 !!

what is UP !!!! i am SLIGHTLY MANIC and i am THRIVING!!!!!!!!!!!

i have ALL A'S as of now!! i got OUT of theater!! i have MONEY!!!!!!! and i have FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!

my health is worse tho ! i have thrown up like 3+ times in the past month or two, uhh i think im sharting blood, my period is every like 2 weeks, and i have disabling stomach aches and muscle pains!! BUT mentally i have been doing good for the past 20-ish hours!!! oh also I'M GETTING AN MRI!!!! :D AT STANFORD!!!!!! THAT'S LIKE A REALLY FANCY PLACE!!!! i MIGHT have endometriosis or like uterus cancer idfk BUT if i do then i get a make-a-wish and then i can meet game grumps and so it might be a win! OH or stupendium, i love their music!! cancer does run in my family, i'd be like 1 of 3 or 4 people in my family w/ cancer if i do have it, but i doubt i do. it's probs just endometriosis UGH lame. that means it'd be permanent, like...... bleugh ?????? i do NOT wanna deal with this shit till i'm like 25 and i can get a hysterectomy bro :(((

anyways i'm chilling!!! uhmmm i might be playing games with my friends on sunday :3 i got 2 new adopts!! i <3 lioden!!!! my older brother moved out :( but he's still in town!! :D he's supposed to be showing me around his college campus soon!! uhhh what else...... erm i'm seeing my therapist on tuesday!! i love her so muchhh!!! this means potentially, drumroll please..... BIPOLAR DIAGNOSIS!!!!!!!! that may sound bad, BUT this means im not just crazy!!! and that it can be TREATED!!!!!!!!! YASS BITCH GET ME ON SOME LITHIUMMMMM!!!!!!!! yum dot com!

either way, im mentally doing good and physically doing bad!! fuck being disabled!! get me OUT!!!! :D <3 love y'all, i'll let y'all know if i die!!!! (if i do, then ermm... my friend A will continue publishing for my FOB oneshots fanfic!!)

LOVE Y'ALL'S !!!!!!!!!! <3 ur 1 and only.. jacub :3