my loneliness is killing me

I wish i was at santa monica right now. i have no reason to really wish that, i just had a flashback to that moment and i missed it. i wanna travel the world with my parents. they're all I really have. 

my head is killing me. i think i might have a fever, but I'm busy all day today. i want to be held so bad  just a hug, just a cuddle. I can't. I've never even felt that. i want to be cradled.