Being By Myself

I find it very hard to be by myself or just to do things alone in general. 

I feel I need the presence of another to validate my actions of doing something. I want to constantly talk to someone or whenever I want to do an activity Im always asking other If they want to join, and if they are busy or don't want to, I don't do the thing I wanna do. It's hitting a point where it's preventing me from achieving and doing things I want to do. I don't know why this is the case. Maybe I feel embarrassed by doing it by myself. When it's with another person it's causal to be seen by others and it feels that since they also want to do the same activity the thing pursied isn't inherently weird? 

I did go to the gym by myself recently and however small that seems I feel that it was actually really big for me. I haven't driven just myself to somewhere not needed (like school or work) in quite a while. I finished my whole workout in two hours all alone. I feel quite proud of myself. 

I would like to work toward being more okay with myself and doing things alone. I think there's a lot to be gained with being comfortable with your own presence :) 

Thanks for reading <3