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genuinely i fucking hate myself. i am such a piece of shit it makes me wanna rip my skin off. like how can i still be on planet earth. i am selfish, apathetic, arrogant, pathetic, ugly and fucking useless. i dont have any fucking irl friends because i am a piece of shit, i understand now why they left me. my whole existence is useless and painful. im fucking dumb and i dont even have any talents, not only that im fat what makes me fucking ugly but i cant stop stuffing all that sugar in myself cuz i have no self control. im something only a mother could love everyone else just doesnt know me or else theyd hated me too. why do i keep thinking that im somewhat pretty or worse that im a nice person? i used to laugh at people for simply existing but look at me now, no friends, no hobbies, all day sitting at home.. i even lost my only remaining passion like doing makeup, and my poor mother is still wasting money on me. i just wrote a wish list for my b-day but yk what? fuck that i dont deserve any of it, hell i dont deserve anything that was bought for me. i wish i could go back in time when i was kid and just... live with no worries. i remember back in russia in my hometown my cute little room, my father who was still somewhat loving, my long hair, my native language. why are you fucking crying bitch stfu. i just wanna have friends again with who i can hang out with and laugh and waste my fucking time in joy. when was the last time that i was happy with no bad thought in the back of my mind, tbh since i moved here in this town 3 years ago it all started. i fucking hate it here. i hate myself too. why am i even writing this? its night and im crying. i am so pathetic
i fcking hate myself wtf
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NachosFans
play tf2
Sabi
6666 relate hahaha
Cubinx
If anything, the fact that you recognize that you have flaws within yourself that needs improving means that you're aware of what's holding you back. You're already doing better than most people.
I also have this sort of self-destructive mindset, and what I normally do is just go "hey, that's not true" to whenever a "I'm such a fucking loser why do I even do anything, why do people like me" pops up. It kinda helps me to calm me down.
In addition, you should try out journaling so you can get all these feelings outside your system. If not, those feelings bottle up and explode all at once like putting mentos in soda in the most inopportune times.
Seems like from other blogs that you are in 9th grade. That's perfect! That means a blank new slate, which means that virtually everyone in your grade doesn't know each other. I'm gonna ask a lot out of you, maybe not, but you need to talk to people. Anybody, I'm sure there's gotta be AT LEAST one person that's interested in you. It could even be upperclassmen, who knows. I have social anxiety myself, but I managed to make many lovely friends, when previously in middle school I barely had any.
You got this, I believe in you! :>
lilartsy666
I'm so sorry u feel like this. I've been there. But if you're not gonna be able to love/accept yourself then how is anyone else going to? I know it's hard trust me. But try being a little nicer to yourself. You're not pathetic, you're just frustrated with a lot things. When u feel these harsh things just stop & think about why you're feeling this way & what can u do to make yourself feel better. Just be kinder to yourself. This world is already full of shitty people who prey on vulnerable people like this. I wish I could give u a hug honestly lol. But I also have a very hard time making friends but if u ever have to talk about anything at all, don't hesitate to text me . Take care <3
kiki
aww man, you talk to urself the way i talk to myself (◞‸◟,) i totally get it. if u wanna chat IM me :D
rev
At least you're a person a mother could love. I've met some people I wouldn't give the honor of that title.
what did they do to you T-T
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
Nothing. Where I live it's just your average neighbor from next door. I find it hard to believe anyone can stand these people.
by rev; ; Report
Liberating madness
A person's worst enemy is their mind ask yourself why do you truly hate yourself?
If you don't like something change it that is the first step and the hardest to take remember change doesn't need to be immediate or life-changing but you must be diligent like grains of sand into a mountain.
Also, learn to enjoy the loneliness if you can't stand your own thoughts when alone company can not help. You shall only become a leech that seeks attention changing yourself for others rather than for your own self. Life is hard we never had a choice about being born but we do have a choice in how we leave so try to live a life worth fighting for.
that sounds poetic<3
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
Wish I could give u a respectable hand shake via the screen
by castratius diogenesis thundercock; ; Report
castratius diogenesis thundercock
Another self hatred guy?oh boy this is gonna be a field day...
Tho u and I have some in common, we both a bit chubby and think that we suck...
We suck?Not really.Despite all the things u said, I can see something good in you, and you having your own worth, even tho you underestimate it.Sure, you claim to be useless that u don't have any talents (or hobbies) but u can still be interesting without them.
But dw, as time will pass, you'l start appreciating yourself more and more.I speak outta my experience.Sure, I didn't pour my soul into it like I did in a blog of a dude who also hated himself, but I try.I believe that you are wonderful, and that those negative traits are brought up because your mind wants to feed itself negativity, or you wanna avoid people and tell them that u a bad person, but please, do not hate yourself.The only person you should only trust ever is yourself.You'll eventually prove to urself that you mean something.Let time take its effect (sorry if sum's off but it's 3 am when I write this so yes)
Hope you'll appreciate my help, folk 💗
AHHHHH OMG BRO HELP IM SORRY
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
AHEM, sorry for what, exactly?
by castratius diogenesis thundercock; ; Report
cuz i didnt think that ppl would act read ts omg, thundercock I LOVE THAT NAME l
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
Well I did.I reply to many blogs.Do people reply in mines?Not really.Do I get responses back?Sometimes.
I just like to help cuz yea, I dealt with self hatred too.And it sucks to be crushed by your own negative thoughts eating every inch of positivity out of you.Also thx for the name appreciation, I love it too.I might be too deep into this, either cuz I'm too helpful or cuz imo u fine ash but yea, I like to help.Makes me feel like someone
by castratius diogenesis thundercock; ; Report
im a catfish lmao. well mister thundercock thank you for the nice comment <3. thundercock is genius im jealous
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
Fuck that was a good one.Now idk if all that I typed was for nun or u became a catfish cuz someone said that u beautiful
by castratius diogenesis thundercock; ; Report
this has got to the point of chatroom but i think i was a catfish since a long time i just know how to shot good angles of me
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
That's a great performance.I hate how I look in photos so I js hope that they won't see the face of the internet... EVER
by castratius diogenesis thundercock; ; Report
IKRRRR like i only post pics of myself when i took them, i look horrifying in non-side selfies
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
All I post ever are either nun or some crappy content I made in 5 minutes.Atlesst people reacting to it makes me happy
by castratius diogenesis thundercock; ; Report
Now wait a dam min, was I helpful with your self hatred?Idk why but I lwk felt like I got a slap on my face by a massive troll (idk)
by castratius diogenesis thundercock; ; Report
yes you did, i laughed bc of your name and then i got happy and now i cant add you to my friends for some reason
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
yes you did, i laughed bc of your name and then i got happy and now i cant add you to my friends for some reason
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
yes you did, i laughed bc of your name and then i got happy and now i cant add you to my friends for some reason
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
yes you did, i laughed bc of your name and then i got happy and now i cant add you to my friends for some reason
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
yes you did, i laughed bc of your name and then i got happy and now i cant add you to my friends for some reason
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
FRIENDS BUT WE'LL NEVER SPEAK, HELL YEAH!!!!!
by castratius diogenesis thundercock; ; Report
WHYYYYYY?!
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
Uhhhhh cuz I SUCK AT TALKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
by castratius diogenesis thundercock; ; Report
BUT UR TALKING NOW ANSWER IN THE MESSAGES
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
BUT UR TALKING NOW ANSWER IN THE MESSAGES
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
BUT UR TALKING NOW ANSWER IN THE MESSAGES
by kudaraneexx; ; Report
Fuck.Didn't use the best excuse ever
by castratius diogenesis thundercock; ; Report