day 19

well, i broke the like 3 day long streak, but i'm back after a week! hah, that rhymed :)

anyways, today sucked, AGAIN !!! wonderful. like, seriously sucked. yesterday i went 2 tha mall with my friends, today i got my period and was bedridden all day! well, i went to school for an hour, and had to go home. then my dad took my devices cuz i went home early! something about "blah blah, it's too early in the year for you to come home early, blah blah, give me your phone and laptop". like BRO....... i'm home early cuz ive got pcos and endometriosis, and i couldnt function at school ???? like, let a man lay in bed and watch game grumps for a couple hours. i feel kinda mad cuz im normally really talkative but i was depressed n cramping all morning and my mom (i love my mom, gang) was talking and i couldnt say a lot besides like "yeah" and "no" and "yes". tbh i was on the verge of tears all morning !!! anyways someone put me on lithium and get me in bed.

good news (jesus christ finally, my blog has been nothing but "owie wowie im in pain yeowch guys" for like a week): i'm getting an MRI at stanford soon!! ("soon" meaning like within 3 or 4 months if i had to guess) and i'm seeing my doctors next week! which is good, cuz ive had an insane stomach ache and debilitating cramps in my whole body for a month straight :D atp i might be dying idfk

shoutout 2 my friends, y'all have been wonderful and helping me think about shit other than my body falling apart !! ambar i WILL get boypregnant for you as a thanks <3 uhmm other than that, life has been shit, my BFF (my older brother) moved out, i've been having mood swings for like months, and i cant focus on anything!! if i am dying, i want the game grumps 2 be my make-a-wish <3 dan, arin, brian, AND suzy better be the avengers in that hospital room /hj

anyways y'all, if i don't make another blog post it's cuz my dad probably took my devices again (apparently, young people aren't allowed to be disabled n sick anymore!!!) so erm... see y'all's eventually! love y'all <3