Breakdown in school

Date: 25 august 2025 

It’s the first week of school and I already had a breakdown, worst part is I’m not really sure why. I just couldn’t stop crying, fortunately I locked myself in the bathroom and then the school therapist came and talked to me. It was embarrassing tho. I don’t know why I had the breakdown, it felt like I was gonna throw up and then my head started pounding and it was just awful. 

Recently I’ve felt a little neglected, neglected by the healthcare, the “kommun” (like a county) I live in, my friends, and even my boyfriend. I’ll try to explain, basically I’m not getting help for my eyes that are hurting almost every night making me unable to sleep, that’s the healthcare part. I’m not getting the funding that everyone else gets from their counties from my county cs mine is slow as hell, that’s the county part that’s making me loose money. My friend cancelled on me two times and my other friend only messages me when she needs me to act as her psychiatrist, I guess that’s the friends part I’m feeling neglected over. And the boyfriend part is hard to explain. Right now we’re in a disagreement that is really important to me, and idk what to do cs I’m scared we won’t ever get past it. I don’t wanna have to break up but idk what to do if we can’t agree on something so fundamental to me. I really do like him, and I wish I knew what he was thinking.

All these things has got me pretty emotional lately. Which is paired with school starting up making it even harder. Sometimes I wonder if having no relationships or friendships would make life easier? Probably not. 

- Elliot