giving up is (not?) an option

I thought I was doing better, I don't understand what the fuck is happening. I've come to realize that everything in my life can't be soft, it has to be rough. rigid. hard. painful. I noticed a long time ago actually, but I figured things can get better in due time. Good things come to those who wait after all. Well im waiting, im trying so hard to be patient. If its not an issue with my school, its my girlfriend, if its not my girlfriend, its my family, if its not my family, its my school, and the fucking cycle continues.

My college has recently cancelled my classes for me because they're taking longer than I thought they would take to fill out of my paperwork, in their defense I took probably longer myself, but this is just another layer of stress to go with everything else im dealing with. I need a job, I need money, I need to do good in classes, I have to I have to I have to I have to