day 18

today has been shit ! :D

i feel like that's a proper first sentence for today's blog entry. apparently, i lied! i am NOT doing better !!! DAMN this bipolar can fight!!!!!!!!! anyways yeah i have beef with like 7 people right now, uhhh half of my friends are in college and/or have jobs, and all my other friends are mentally ill fags like me and are either vaguely problematic or have other friends than me. my dad literally calls one of my friends "Suicide Jason", that's why i don't have him in my will! x3

anyways, i ate a big ass bowl of ice cream. pretty good. hurts my teeth tho, cuz i probs have like 2 cavities. i burnt my tongue real good yesterday, so both warm AND cold hurt.

uhhh the guy i have a sort-of crush on MIGHT ACTUALLY be age appropriate!! FUCK YOUUU daddy issues, I GET TO CHOOSE (for once). he's a junior, i think, and i'm a sophomore :3 mostly cuz like half of the guys i've considered are either out of my league, already dating someone, or out of my age range. fuck my stupid chud life VS bless my wonderful puppy life. i went home 30 minutes early from school today. i've been cramping a shitload more, probably because i havent been taking my birth control as often. man FUCK pcos. my entire body is betraying me because im gay and havent been dicked down in like forever (hashtag virgin). atp i need my bff to put the strap on and help me out. anyways uh i love oversharing on the internet

im gonna go jork it and/or cry, BTW listen to dinosaur by kesha, the game grumps put me on that song and it is the BOMB. love y'all's, kiss kiss hug hug