Life update

I know I've been missing for a while but I forgot this app existed lol

My anger issues is getting worse. Actually, alot of my mental issues are getting worse. Isn't that just wonderful?! I'm generally so stressed out because of the people I live with it's CRAZY!!

I made new friends, well, online, but still! They're the best people EVER!! They understand me so well. Idk what I would do without them atp.

My relationship with my mother is...weird. I hate her guts but I still speak to her without having to. Also, she's constantly using my phone for stuff because hers broke and it really pisses me off.

I haven't talked with my dad really, but we're going school shopping soon which is cool, I guess.

I am starting to hate my brother with a PASSION. He's acting so much worse now and my mother is doing nothing about it.

I created this Texas guy in my head who calms me down. It keeps me from relapsing, so call me crazy if you want, but I can HEAR his voice and it calms me down so well.

My birthday passed!! I'm 15 now. Isn't that just wonderful. I was never supposed to make it this far.

I keep not sleeping, I'm tired but I can't sleep, but all I do is SLEEP.

Can someone just put me down like a rabid dog already? I've suffered enough I think. I am not God's strongest soldier.

Idk why I brought God into this. I'm not religious.

Anyway, thanks for reading if you did. Life is not getting better and I'm not sure how much I can really take.