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Heyyoo so is anyone else just feeling like complete ass lately? Like i couldnt be happy rn to save my life. And its not necessarily like that "depressive" state, i just cant seem to find anything to do, or to entertain me or literally just anything. And i mean sure, i get happy doing certain stuff but it really doesnt last very long. Soz if this is too sad or wtv but i just cant seem to be happy for a prolonged period of time, theres always just something wrong. And I cant ever seem to be completely relaxed? Like, ykwim? I could have just the most perfect day of my life and afterwards id still feel like fucking dying. And its not that im just always "sad", its not just "sad" because I dont feel like crying or smth like that, its just this infinite boredom but i yet i dont have the energy to get up and actually do something with my life. If anything, im sad that i cant even really describe this to anyone because how?? How do u express you feelings without sounding fucking pathetic?? But I know that they wont judge me, so I guess i must just be weird or something i dunno. Lmk if anyone has experienced the same shit or knows how to help! Im done bye
-Ivy out!!!
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ego hipócrita
yea cuz like, theres always those days where im like, satisfied and rlly "happy" but then all of a sudden i wanna stop existing again. i mean, i aint wanna kms or sumn i jus wanna stop existing and idk WHyy dis happens i love my friends love the ppl around me but yet wanna stop livin.. kinda weird. always filled with hate and envy tho im not like dis DDD:
𝕬𝖐𝖆𝖎
i still rmeber going thru that stage but it's so long ago i can't rmeber what it's rlly like from before just except for extreme happiness from things for so long lasting but now my stage of brain has forgotten sm and it's very hard for me to even grasp words to explain but maybe also try getting a cat they help me a lot to sorry if im horrible explainer im so badly at explaining my brain but when i see stuff like this that ik i know so much abt its so hard to even get words to out them together to describe bc its very undescribable
𝕬𝖐𝖆𝖎
bro this crashed but i re opend and rewriting anyway but my dophamine is ruiend from mdma and it's like desensitization for me everything feels so weird for years and it's craziness but hardest thing to explain but best helping stuff is find stuff that even helps abit i don't even get joy at all anymore only kinda extreme contenders well mostly with my girlfriend but she dosent wanna talk to me a lot anymore so but like super dense purple weed makes me feel abit of joy and taking care of myself allways turns out into feeling better than before so try to find stuff that even if u don't feel joy doing or after them it still helps if it's good for u like i do baking and cleaning to try help and listen to a lot of music
I will try that thank you!! Hope ur doing okayy xd
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