i love my friends so much

guys i am literally crying as i write this

for so long, even though i had "groups" of friends, i never actually had a friend in which i actually had deep feelings on.

for so long, i never liked what i saw when i looked at myself on the mirror.

for so long, i thought i was a loser for liking things nobody carnes

then i found a friend group in which i fit. i liked everyone, and they liked me back. then i ended up being a part of the group.

fast forward a few years and now i feel loved. i feel a part of an ACTUAL group in which i am loved and i love them back.

they were the first step for me to become a better person. get my self-esteem right. if i had to vent they would listen. and if they had to vent, i would listen.

for the first time in my life, i learned how to love myself. i learned how to talk to other people. 

for the first time in my life, i didnt feel like a lonely bird in the middle of a crowded city.

for the first time in my life, i liked what i saw when i looked at the mirror and noticed im not a loser, i am just unique and that's okay.

my friends changed my life and i am so, so grateful for having them.