Being aromantic..

I am aromantic To be exact, i find the term "lithromantic" very accurate. Basically i can catch attraction towards someone only when i dont know that person very close and especially when i am certain that person doesnt like me back. When someone starts liking me back, my attraction fades away, i really cant explain why, it just does. I still enjoy being physically close to someone, but only when its not romantic.

It's hard to explain why i dont like the concept of romantic intimacy. i dont need it, it makes me feel weird, and i can just never feel the same way about the person knowing they are attracted to me.

Ive never personally met anyone with the same experience. It gets difficult at times, because i get love confessions relatively often and many people dont understand my aromanticism. Having to reject people is just AAAHHHHH. i feel so bad.

There is a weird amount of misunderstading towards aroace specs. Ive been told i'm just "single at heart". My psychologist, who diagnosed my gender dysphoria, was accepting towards trans people, but suggested i work on my asexuality, as if it was a disorder. Odd, isnt it?

Yesterday i read a webcomic "les normaux ". It had a lot of aro/ace representations and it made me happy. There was one aroace guy, an asexual lesbian, even the main character is demi! So cool!