day 16!

im back... insane, right? 2 days in a row? am i high and/or manic? unfortunately, neither. i'm, like, if i could describe it, half manic and half depressed. might be heading 2 hypomania town in the next week or two if i could guess.

uhh... school started! i met a couple new people, and i am officially a sophomore! 1 year until i'm an upperclassman! gross. like, only a couple weeks back i was 11. i'm in classes with people who have sleeve tattoos, but i'm also in classes with 2011 babies (YUCK). yes i'm a hypocrite cuz im just a year older than that. suck my johnson, let me cope in some semblance of a way. im probably gonna set up a new playlist to keep me hyped during school so i don't get all Cs like last year. in my defense, i was very depressed and tried offing myself like twice ! not cool, freshman jacob.

i miss my senior friends. they were, like, a big part of the energy in my classes, and now they're just... not there? seriously, guys, im gonna lock you up so you can stay at school. drop out of college and join my emo band (gerard way fr).

i am in weight training! gonna get big n buff so i can find myself a good man to carry around and probably keep me in check. or a nice girl, i dunno! it's just that i haven't dated a dude before and i'm like 80% attracted to guys and 20% everyone else. ily ladies, if i could i'd give you all big kisses, but unfortunately my brain yearns for some fuckass guy. there is a cute guy in one of my classes, Christopher or something? he rides a longboard, he's cute but i think he's a senior and if the grades don't touch the people don't. i might be willing to break that rule tho. i need me some bussy /j

anyways, if you couldn't tell i jusst drank soda and should probably shut the fuck up before i go on a pete wentz livejournal rant. i'm actually kinda doing good, for once, but i probably won't be by like a week from now. ttyl, gangalang. stay faggy