academic stress is lowkey worth it

i have

so many extra/co-curriculars but its like kinda worth it to have that life afterwards

-taekwondo

-junior high publication

-campus ministry

-possibly restarting piano

-considering joining science varsity

like im crashing out but its better the crashout is now than later and being honest, i have so many seniors as inspiration to keep going

i have insane eyebags but yeah i got that dead eyes shit rn

gonna be tired academic fine shyt rn (tired shit langHAHHAHAHH)

to be honest im not really doing so well socially, or maybe im not doing as well as i'd like to. i didnt like distance myself from my freindgroup because i realized that theyre not going away from me; im going away from THEM. im making a problem circulate aroundn me tbh

i AM friends w the friendgroup i wanted tobe in sooo ehhehehfhhhhHEHHEHEHAHJ

anyways academically, id say im doing fine-ishhhh

i got a 7/10 but thats my lowest score tbh i havent gotten a failing

but i do wanna become highest honors again this school year, since i didnt reach highest honors (97.87 final average)

IT WAS 0.13 AWAY 

okay idfc grade 9 was hard anyway

sometimes i wonder if im gonna keep usign this blog until im an adult

whoever reads these blogs (if theres anyone reading them at all)

you've basically watched me grow up. ive had this account since i was in like elementary and im about to enter senior high in a year HAHHAH

kinda crazy that i was grade 8 last year then grade 11 next year

(jan-jun 2024 g8)
(aug24-apr25 g9)
(jul25-apr26 g10)
(undefine in 2026 - g11)

MANNNNNN

I FEEL LIKE I HAVENT MATURED AT ALL BUT SO MANY OF MY JUNIORS LOOK UP TO MEEEEEE 😓😓😓😓 I FEEL LIKE IM THE SAME AGE AS THEM MENTALLYYY...

haha loser in elementary, loser in highschool masked by a friendgroup and good academics !